left out

I feel completely left out of everything. I miss my friends, but lack the time, and admittedly, the ambition to try to coordinate a get together with anyone. Schedules, time, sitter, money, travel. It's easier to stay home when all is said and done. I hear about things my friends are doing, separately and together, and here I sit, feeling sorry for myself. Maybe today is pity party day. Yep, that has to be it. I do it to myself.
Then there are the things I should be doing, and I don't even want to start because I know there's a great probability that it will get half done and something will happen or come up so I won't finish it, and there it will sit. In the pile of half-done things. More pity for me.
Poor poor me. Sick of that yet? I am.